My feeling about Cameron's Fanfic

Hello sunshine:3

Gw dibilang galau nggak, di bilang galau juga ia. Efek baca fanfiction:"3 hehe. Gw baca fanfic Cameron Dallas, jadi Cameron Dallas ini bad boy gitu, ada murid baru namanya Rae, si Cam semacam have a feeling for her, tapi Cam ini bukan typenya si Rae, Rae punya keluarga, keluarganya ini bisa dibilang perfect family, ortunya nggak pernah marah-marah gitu, jadi Rae bosen sama keadaan itu, dia pake Cam buat bikin ortunya marah. Dia sama Cam go on a date, mereka nonton movie bareng, pergi ke amusement park gitu, lama-lama Rae punya perasaan ke Cam, Rae bilang ke Cam tentang perasaanya :

"I need you" i say trembling at his soft touch.

"No you don't need me. I'm bad for you" he says staring at me with the brown eyes that haunt me.

"I love you, Cameron" i say for the first time. The words on my lips leave me breathless and ecstatic. 

"I wish you hadn't fallen for me" he replies "you're too good for me" he says. 

Jadi semacam Cam itu nggak mau bikin Rae sakit hati gara-gara dia itu bad boy gitu. 1 minggu setelah itu, Rae dateng ke rumah Cam, mereka ngobrol-ngobrol gitu, dan Cam akhirnya nyadar he loves Rae, jadi dia ngomong ke Rae :

"Fine will you be my girlfriend?" I say shakily. She seems taken back. 

"Quit kidding around" she says in all seriousness. I look her in the eye.

"If we both love each other, will you be my girlfriend?" She gapes at me. I look her in the eye.

"No" she says sincerely. I look at her, holding back tears. I was so sure she loved me. So sure Rae wanted me.

"W-why? I thought you loved me" i choke out unsuccessfully.

"I do, it's very complicated. I'll tell you when i know for sure what's going on. I just, don't know id i can handle the stress of a relationship and all the tes-" she stop herself mid sentence. What was she saying? It sounded like tests?

"What tests?" I ask suspiciously. Maybe it school or something.

"I might have cancer" she blurts out at random.

Pas Cam tau Rae punya kanker, dia terus support Rae, nemenin Rae setiap ke rumah sakit dan lain-lain. Dokter bilang penyakit kankernya itu nggak begitu parah, tapi dia tetep ajah punya lung cancer. 1 bulan jalanin pengobatan, dokternya tiba-tiba bilang kalo Rae bakalan meninggal, dokter bisa operasi dia tapi kemungkinan dia meninggal itu 80%. Rae mulai putus asa, Cameron always by her side, everyday. Terus si Rae minta dibawa ke suatu tempat dimana pas mereka pertama kali said "i love you", pas di bawa ke pantai Rae bilang sebaiknya mereka itu putus ajah, Rae nggak mau Cam terpuruk pas dia pergi dan nggak bakalan balik lagi. Tapi Cam nggak mau lepasin Rae begitu ajah, dia janji bakalan selalu ada buat dia, Cam janji bakalan sayang sama Rae selamanya, terus Rae bilang "Cameron if i die soon. I want to die knowing you were mine", Cameron bilang "I have always been yours, I always will be yours.". Paginya Cam cek hp, dan dia dapet text kalo Rae dirumah sakit, dia langsung pergi kerumah sakit, Rae bilang dia bisa ajah meninggal beberapa jam ke depan, tapi Cam terus bilang "i don't care. Just know i love you. Try not leave me, try for me" terus Cam peluk Rae, pas Cam peluk Rae mata Rae mulai nutup, pas Cam lepas dari pelukan Rae, Rae senyum dan akhirnya nutup matanya:'(. Cam langsung panggil dokter dan dia nungguin dengan nervous di waiting room, dia berdoa terus menerus, terus dokternya keluar bilang kalo dia masih hidup. Terus ayahnya Rae bilang ke Cam "she's alive, the doctors said she just got energy. They said it's like just took a nap. The first things she's said was 'i fought for him'. I don't know what you did boy. But please love her until the end of time". Beberapa bulan kemudian ada miracle gitu, Rae sembuh dari kanker, dan pas dia lagi dirumah Cam, Rae liat hpnya Cam, dan Cam selingkuh dari Rae, mereka putus. Beberapa minggu kemudian Cam jadian sama cewe lain, dan Rae juga jadian. Terus pas Cam mau main kerumah cewenya, cewenya selingkuh dari Cam, dan Rae juga baru putus. Nah si Cam bilang ke dirinya sendiri "now it's time to go win Rae back". Pas Rae disamperin dan Cam minta maaf, Rae bilang "i still love you. I know you have done wrong things to me but i can't hid my feelings for you" dan mereka balik lagi, dan ceritanya selesai, nggak detail banget sih gw ceritainnya, kalo terlalu detail gw capek ngetiknya haha. Jadi gimana yah, Rae itu sama kayak gw, udah disakitin berkali-kali, di bikin nangis berkali-kali tapi tetep ajah masih sayang sama doi, bagaimanapun kesalahan doi, tapi ya udah lah yah, itu masa lalu, dan sekarang gw udh bisa lupain doi, gw nggak bisa bilang move on, karena kalo move on itu berarti gw berpaling ke cowo lain, tapi gw suka sama Cameron, gimana dong? :b haha. I really want a relationship like 'Cam and Rae'. Cam so sweet banget di fanfic itu:"3. Ada 20+ hampir 30 lah fanfiction Cameron Dallas di library wattpad gw :'D. 

Oke bye sunshine! Love you xx. See ya!